I learn more and more about God everyday i will never understand him fully. It's still hard to wrap my mind around a person who loves me so much that he died for me.. But not just me he died for each one of us.. I always thought it was crap when people would tell me " You know Regan he was thinking about YOU on that cross" I just can't and really won't ever get the fullness of God's love for me. I know alot of people say i'm the "GODLY GIRL" i don't mind having a "label" of that i am a child of God... But i'm not perfect sometimes i wish i could just go out and party and hang out with the wrong crowd it's a temptation something i personally struggle with. But in my heart i KNOW it's wrong and i know how bad i would feel even thinking about it my heart just sinks. I think when i prayed to God awhile back i said "God please just show me show me what your will is for me . Break my heart for what breaks yours God" .... Well he did which i'm blessed and just so thankful for.. but sometimes it can be a pain.... I realize this entry is so all over the place.. but so many thoughts are in my mind i can't just organize them all... My desires are to not help the ones in the church.. but to help the ones outside the church... the ones who feel un welcomed the ones who can't stand the thought of Christianity because they've been hurt to many times. The ones who feel ashamed of there lives and feel as if God has no love for them. Saying "Jesus loves you" won't do anything... YOU yourself have to say I love you I'M HERE for you.. I'm not going to turn my back on you.. I make mistakes ... DO NOT get me wrong the LOVE of GOD is soooo much better than my love your love or anyone elses but .. knowing they have an earthly friend that truly is there is something that will let them have hope there are real friend in life. Not the partying friends, not the ones you see at school ... no the friends that you can call at 3am in the morning and just say hey pray for me... GOD HAS TAKEN MY HEART and HE IS AND I EXPECT HIM TO KEEP CHANGING IT <3
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hi miss rae :) i love your blog! and this post as well. i love seeing God stir inside your heart, i've been watching him do so since the day i met you. i'm excited to see where all of this takes you because i know He has amazing plans for you!
ReplyDeletei like this song that you posted as well! :)
xoxo love you! i wish everyone could be as lucky to have a dear friend like you as I do!